I’ve been meaning to post about some lovely things that have been happening in my life.
I’ve been collecting up these bits of joy, and out of a habitual fear of jinxing things, I’ve been keeping these things to myself.
But I am getting the impression that my cautious optimism will no longer do:
“…and the world shall open up to receive your joy.”
Recently, I ordered this Loki mini- mala from Beth and I received it in the mail the other day.
Since my family and I were hosting guests from out of town the day that package arrived, I put it aside to open later, perhaps the next day.
Well, things got busy, and our guests lingered for a few days.
However, my thoughts kept straying to the package.
I’ve never had a mala before, to be honest, I was looking forward to having some time to myself to fully immerse myself in the use of this one.
And finally, almost a week later, I finally got my chance to open the package, hold them and pray with them.
This mala is truly a pleasure to work with.
(But then again, I think that could be said about every ‘touch bead’ item that I’ve ever purchased from Beth, as this mala joins a small collection of prayer beads – two of which she has also made – that reside on my Loki altars.)
But this mala has the addition of a black silk tassel that I absolutely love to touch – and the beads!
The beads just slide effortlessly through my fingers.
I am continually impressed with how Beth’s choice of bead (size, weight, and texture) always seems to be spot-on energy-wise in every prayer item that she has made that I have purchased.
As well, Beth enclosed a beautifully handwritten(!) prayer card with the mala:
While I admit that I referred to it the first few times I prayed, the words and imagery of this suggested prayer served as a lovely jumping-off point for creating my own personal prayer as I moved through the beads during later sessions.
That alone was pretty powerful…and things got even more interesting when I began praying with my own words.
There was a personal prayer that I would offer back when I was just beginning my devotional practice with Loki in 2011. I was transitioning from the mindset of a skeptical agnostic to making my first attempts at opening up to being a devotional polytheist.
It was at that time in my life that a specific prayer had nearly become a daily mantra that I would return to whenever I was full of doubt.
It was a prayer about letting go of anger, pain, and fear… and opening up to trust, to joy, and to love.
So, fast forward to last night.
I’d gone through several cycles of prayer.
Perhaps my brain was casting about for something else, but I found myself returning to the beginning of things, and when I began speaking the words–
May I let go of my pain and open to joy….
I inexplicably felt the need to pause
Because suddenly I just knew!
There had always been a response:
…and the world shall open up to receive your joy.
These beads are full of such warmth.
They feel as if they are bursting with a bright expansive energy.
Loki is just so present in them.
I am in love all over again.