Have you played it?
This is what I got:
“I was born in the middle of a lesson but i think its not the same thing that ties into my head from the past.”
Born in the middle of a lesson, indeed.
A friend of mine once told me that I must live ‘in a musical vacuum’ because there’s a lot of popular songs that I’ve never listened to, much less heard of.
Often, I don’t want to agree with her for two good reasons.
First, I’ll pretty much listen to any and all genres of music.
And second, I’m pretty much listening to music all of the time.
Yes, much like Starlord, I have a soundtrack to my days, if not, my entire life…so I cannot fathom how this could be.
I do not want to believe that I live in a musical vacuum. I tell myself that I’d know a popular song if I heard it before, wouldn’t I?
So last night, she sent me a link to this:
This is Lennon Roach.
He is an munitions system specialist for the US Air Force stationed in Lakenheath England.
So I listened to the song, and then I went to bed.
But I woke up this morning with bits of that lovely melody and heartfelt lyrics still resonating in my head.
So I’ve been thinking of this song all morning.
I must’ve clicked on the link a dozen times, listening to it since last night.
Because of the way that it was shared, I did not see the tag that identifies this song, but I found myself absolutely falling in love with the words and the melody.
Once I’d practically memorized the lyrics of the song…I realized I had to know more.
So I Googled the song lyrics, expecting that this would be an original piece.
Much to my surprise, I found out this morning that it’s a cover of Coldplay’s ‘The Scientist.’
Maybe I do live in a musical vacuum.
I stand corrected.
I don’t know if I’d ever gotten around to mentioning this, but I am working on another project which has become rather intense lately.
After several incredibly productive weeks, it felt as if certain aspects of the project were just not flowing anymore, and I couldn’t figure out why.
So I pulled a few runes to see if I could tease out what was the source of the blockage:
And this is what came up.
Situation: Laguz – a rune that represents the essence of flow, the essence of depth, complexity.
Overall Aspect: Wunjo – a rune that represents joy. A rune of success and happiness. Situation has the potential to go well. Paired with Laguz, this felt like an excellent sign.
So what happened?
Result: Berkano, reversed- Like a sneaky ton of bricks, I immediately grasped the message here: Your attitude is affecting the potential here; your overall attitude is affecting the growth and the flow. I see Berkano as a rune of fertility here; and its reversal marks it as the blockage: a fertility that may be misdirected…a profound indicator about how my own attitude – perhaps I am ‘fertilizing’ or feeding my worries and stresses about the project rather than pushing past them or through them – and *that* is the problem.
I don’t think I’ve ever experienced such a clear message through my runes before….
But that’s it in a nutshell, as it relates to the project, it would seem that the runes are telling me to get the eff out of my own way.
Again, point taken, Sir. 😯
Today I made an offering to Loki
and received this odd little bit of synchronicity:
From Gravity Falls’ Mabel, of all places.
Point taken, Sir. ❤
So, in case I hadn’t mentioned, I have been trying to learn German over the last six months.
Though as much as I have tried, according to the fluency paradigm of the application I’m using, I’ve only reached about 35% fluency and that supposedly corresponds to a vocabulary of approximately 800 words.
Only 800 words.*
In my waking life, I find myself translating simple phrases that I read or hear into German, as the program I use encourages this practice as it promotes intuitive learning.
Nonetheless, something odd has begun to occur: These basic German phrases have also begun to seep into my subconscious, as certain words and phrases have crept in during several of my daily meditations and have been popping up in a few of my dreams lately.
Thus, I was half-tempted to title this post:
Was sagt Er? (What does He say?)
Case in point, I had an intense meditation the other day, wherein this phrase kept echoing in my head:
Schauen sie mich an
(Look at me.)
Now that’s a phrase that I knew, as I’d been studying a unit on imperatives (ie; commands) last week, so I didn’t think much of it, and I mentally pushed it away, and continued to focus on my breathing.
However, that phrase continued to surface throughout my meditation, so I treated it as typical distracting mind-chatter, and I tried my best to accept that it was going to keep floating through my head for the duration.
But I found it difficult to focus after a while.
And then last night, I had a dream I was talking to a man in my dream – who had been speaking English -until suddenly he said:
Was wirst du mir beiten?**
Not once, but twice.
Now that immediately brought to mind the phrase I use to refer to Them – sie beiden – so I stopped, and began to examine the phrase itself, trying to translate it, wondering if I was hearing/understanding what I heard…
But thinking of ‘beiden’ made no sense:
Was wirst du mir beiden?
Which, off the top of my head, I was translating to mean: ‘What will you both to me?’
I was confused.
I said to the person, Was sagst du? (What are you saying?)
To which the person responded:
Wieso rennst du von mir?
Which I was pretty certain was
Why are you running from me?
* I feel a bit disappointed in myself, as a vocabulary of 800 words strikes me as being a rather small amount. I would think that I would be more fluent after six months of study.
** When I awoke this morning, I plugged the phrase ‘Was wirst du mir beiden?‘ into Google translate, it suggested that it was not ‘beiden‘ but ‘beiten‘ which is from the verb, ‘to offer’ – therefore, Was wirst du mir beiten? translates to ‘What will you offer me?’
Again, a member of a Lokean forum posted an interesting question today:
Has anyone felt moved to learn sign language for/because of Loki? (Do any of you sign btw?)
This question got me to thinking, as I hadn’t thought about it, much less admitted to anyone else that though Loki and I have been communicating non-verbally for a while now, I’ve never gone into much detail as to how we communicate.
In the summer of 2012 – which I consider the second beginning of my contact with Loki – any ‘communication’ I experienced with Him was almost entirely non-verbal: I first experienced His presence in dreams and meditations through particular sensations, and through association with sudden, lingering scents.
Then I started experiencing visuals of Him, but these visions only occurred in vivid dreams and during particularly intense meditations. Even in those vivid dreams, I rarely ‘heard’ His voice and more often than not, there was hardly ever any sound.
I’d begun to see references to the god-phone, but I didn’t think I had one.
The more I read about the ‘godphone’ concept, the more I began to feel that perhaps I wasn’t wired for such a thing. So, I accepted this, began to refer myself headblind, believing it was not possible for me to ‘hear’ Loki anyway. I felt confused and often wondered if what was happening between us was communication at all.
There was a long while wherein I dreamt of Him rather regularly, and while I would often feel sensations or even smell the scents I’d come to associate with His presence, on the rare occasion that I’d get a visual, He seemed to communicate by showing me objects, or indicating that I should observe His body language, or communicate concepts to me through hand gestures.
I felt that Loki ‘spoke’ to me only through sensations, scents and symbols, nudging me to make connections between seemingly unrelated objects, concepts and ideas.
And it was only later – sometimes months later – that I’d make the connections: What He’d shown me in dreams would appear later in a string of coincidences in my waking life: He’d been holding a bird, reading a book, or drawing me a symbol, and then later, I’d see flocks of those birds in my backyard, or see that symbol on a random bit of street graffiti, or I’d catch sight of that book displayed in a store window.
There’s nothing like that sudden inevitable sense of deja-vu. Where have I seen this before? Where have I heard of this before?
A good example of this is in 2013 – almost a year after my first exposure to the visuals, I realized He had been showing me mudras.
So, as you might imagine, it took me a long time to to figure out that Loki had been using sign language with me.
So, you can imagine my surprise to realize that, over the past three, perhaps four years, I have learned how to finger-spell and I have learned to recognize basic actions/concepts (signs for want, give, need, do, go, and love, for example)
Like the mudras, I thought these were particular and unique to the interactions between Loki and I.
But I didn’t realize the full extent of the meaning of that happening until last July, my family and I adopted a puppy.
And it turns out my puppy is deaf.
So in my research of learning how to communicate with my puppy, I feel that strange but exhilarating sense of discovery when I watch videos of hand signals -which are various extensions based upon American Sign Language – for different basic commands, such:
Listen to me.
Do (you) understand?
Now, my signing skills have had to improve in yet another realm of my life, and I realize that I really should buckle down and actually learn ASL.
And I find it interesting and sort of amazing that even though my ‘godphone’ has gotten a lot better…
Loki still defaults to signing sometimes anyway.