bloodteethandflame

It’s become an every day occurrence that I am awakened between 3:00 and 6:00 AM.

I’ve seen others ascribe some mysterious meaning to this, but I’m not certain that I can any longer.

Sometimes, it seems that it has always been this way, and that is the reason that I often found myself being the employee that was often tasked with either closing the store (midnight to 2 AM), or opening the store (6-8AM). Both of these situations almost guaranteed that I’d be either going to bed by 4 AM, or having to be awakened by 4 AM or so.

Other times, I would almost want to blame it on my children when they were babies. Each of them always had the best feeding at 4 AM or so, and so 4 AM became my favorite, quiet ‘bonding’ time of my day.

I think about my childhood, and its night terrors, studying in college, hanging out with ‘night owls,’ adapting to feeding schedules, or simply working first shifts, and third shifts, and it feels like I’m just trying to adapt to a very real situation.

I am going to be awake — for whatever reason– between 3:00 and 6:00 AM most days.

I will admit that, over the years, I found myself getting very dependent on sleeping pills to attempt to sleep through the hours between 3:00 and 6:00 AM.

But I’m not going to fight it any more.

I should just accept it.

I do have to say that there is something to be said for watching the sun rise.