A confession.
by beanalreasa
I would like to admit that I have been rather antisocial lately.
One might even go as far as to say that I am on the edge of being too irritable for human interaction specifically.
(Some might be tempted to blame that super-moon in Pisces that just occurred. I remember reading something yesterday about how a ‘moon in Pisces’ causes increased emotional tension and whatnot. Color me not surprised.)
That would go a long way in explaining why I’ve found myself in these conversations with others that occur despite the fact that I have been desperately trying to avoid conversation, much less interaction lately.
Hel, it is more than likely that I have been avoiding interactions with others so that I may avoid the possibility of conflict and/or tension.
And it is exactly at times like these
He will often say things just to bait me into verbal sparring.
But this time He did it slyly with a compliment.
Me: (says knee-jerk cranky, judgmental thing concerning politics)
Him: Wow. That’s…interesting and a bit extreme. Do you care to explain your position?
Me: No. I’m cranky. Too irritated to explain. I’m just being judgmental. *flushes a little, looks away*
Him: Well, Heathir, if I were to judge you like that, then I would just have to…. love you for everything you do.
Me: Wait. What?
(Meanwhile, whilst typing this out, Autocorrect kept changing the above text to ‘ I would just have to… fuck you for everything you do‘ O.o)
Mindfsckery…with compliments, no less.
I think words are the last thing you need right now – they are just another discussion, after all – but with the limits of the Internet being what they are, it’s words I have to use, in order to tell you that I hope things will improve, and that I wish this whole comment, this whole bunch of words, would serve as a simple hug.
Thank you, Stormwise, for your kind words.