I don’t know how.
I don’t know how to follow up yesterday’s post.
So, if you are looking for the continuation of yesterday’s ‘to be continued’
– you aren’t going to find it here today.
I have been thinking all day of how I could write the continuation…but it isn’t happening today.
I made the mistake of going over some old posts from my notebooks from 2013, thinking that I could glean something from the pages of rage and despair.
He is correct, you know.
I wasn’t learning anything from all the pain that I’d felt – that I’d sought to feel – back then.
Reading all the pages today of that awful story – my story – was heart-wrenching.
I know what I said. I know what I promised.
I just can’t deliver today.