Month for Loki, Fifth: Signs.
Again, a member of a Lokean forum posted an interesting question today:
Has anyone felt moved to learn sign language for/because of Loki? (Do any of you sign btw?)
This question got me to thinking, as I hadn’t thought about it, much less admitted to anyone else that though Loki and I have been communicating non-verbally for a while now, I’ve never gone into much detail as to how we communicate.
In the summer of 2012 – which I consider the second beginning of my contact with Loki – any ‘communication’ I experienced with Him was almost entirely non-verbal: I first experienced His presence in dreams and meditations through particular sensations, and through association with sudden, lingering scents.
Then I started experiencing visuals of Him, but these visions only occurred in vivid dreams and during particularly intense meditations. Even in those vivid dreams, I rarely ‘heard’ His voice and more often than not, there was hardly ever any sound.
I’d begun to see references to the god-phone, but I didn’t think I had one.
The more I read about the ‘godphone’ concept, the more I began to feel that perhaps I wasn’t wired for such a thing. So, I accepted this, began to refer myself headblind, believing it was not possible for me to ‘hear’ Loki anyway. I felt confused and often wondered if what was happening between us was communication at all.
There was a long while wherein I dreamt of Him rather regularly, and while I would often feel sensations or even smell the scents I’d come to associate with His presence, on the rare occasion that I’d get a visual, He seemed to communicate by showing me objects, or indicating that I should observe His body language, or communicate concepts to me through hand gestures.
I felt that Loki ‘spoke’ to me only through sensations, scents and symbols, nudging me to make connections between seemingly unrelated objects, concepts and ideas.
And it was only later – sometimes months later – that I’d make the connections: What He’d shown me in dreams would appear later in a string of coincidences in my waking life: He’d been holding a bird, reading a book, or drawing me a symbol, and then later, I’d see flocks of those birds in my backyard, or see that symbol on a random bit of street graffiti, or I’d catch sight of that book displayed in a store window.
There’s nothing like that sudden inevitable sense of deja-vu. Where have I seen this before? Where have I heard of this before?
A good example of this is in 2013 – almost a year after my first exposure to the visuals, I realized He had been showing me mudras.
So, as you might imagine, it took me a long time to to figure out that Loki had been using sign language with me.
So, you can imagine my surprise to realize that, over the past three, perhaps four years, I have learned how to finger-spell and I have learned to recognize basic actions/concepts (signs for want, give, need, do, go, and love, for example)
Like the mudras, I thought these were particular and unique to the interactions between Loki and I.
But I didn’t realize the full extent of the meaning of that happening until last July, my family and I adopted a puppy.
And it turns out my puppy is deaf.
So in my research of learning how to communicate with my puppy, I feel that strange but exhilarating sense of discovery when I watch videos of hand signals -which are various extensions based upon American Sign Language – for different basic commands, such:
Listen to me.
Do (you) understand?
Now, my signing skills have had to improve in yet another realm of my life, and I realize that I really should buckle down and actually learn ASL.
And I find it interesting and sort of amazing that even though my ‘godphone’ has gotten a lot better…
Loki still defaults to signing sometimes anyway.
I have the experience with mudras, sign language and Loki too. But also Apollo used them. Very interesting I’m not alone with this.
It’s strange that I’d never thought to thought to write about my experiences with Loki, sign language (or the mudras) until someone else wrote a Facebook post about it…and now you have had such experiences too.
And here I was thinking it was so odd — I guess that it is not, eh? 🙂 The Universe is funny, indeed.
Thanks for your note!
There is another Lokean forum? (The only one I know is more than year inactive Friends of Loki.)
I never thought about mudras, I never learned any … this is an eye opener!
No. It’s a FB group, not a forum – I did not mean to mislead you. 😕
But mudras, yes…mudras are something that L showed me in late 2012, but i didnt figure out what he was doing until 2013.