Month for Loki, Day 10: A Dream
I had a dream wherein He spoke to me and said that there were three things that I should work on…
And then I had another dream that got in the way of the memory of the first dream.
That second dream – the one that got in the way of my memory – was about taking V to court in Plainsville, NY (but I think that it was supposed to be Plattsville)…and we had an older daughter who was kinda difficult to handle because she was so angry, and I couldn’t get her to calm down.
But she was there because she had testified in my favor, and the judge ended up siding with me.
I don’t know what that meant.
But the first dream, Loki talked with me, but I could not remember what I was supposed to work on.
So when I awoke, K told me that He told zir to tell me that I should work on:
Trust, loyalty…. and forgetting.
But K wouldn’t say what that was in regards to.
Stay loyal to what?
Forget about what?
K said that zie was told that I could figure it out.
And then I remembered something: Loyalty had something to do with the poly thing: that I should stop the behavior of having sex with certain people.
He said that He wanted to choose, and it showed a disrespect of Him or lack of loyalty to Him, to have situations with certain people.
And I remember Him showing me, in images rather than words, to whom He was referring.
He was saddened by something in my behavior, similar to some dreams I’d had before wherein He would say that I knew how to listen and/or do, but that I just didn’t want to.
That made me sad, too.
And the forgetting concerns the past, of letting the past go… of not letting the past keep me from moving forward towards what is changing.
You are changing, He said, and I am pleased with you. Don’t stop. Don’t relent.
I know what that means.
But I am anxious.
I know what He is talking about.